Bryan Kohberger’s chilling posts as a teenager reveal how he felt ‘unfeeling and a bit of a guilty conscience’

Chilling online posts allegedly written by an Idaho murder suspect as a teenager have resurfaced, revealing his self-expressed lack of emotion and remorse.

Bryan Kohberher, 28, is charged with four counts of murder related to the brutal stabbing to death of University of Idaho students Madison Mogen, Kaylee Goncalves, Xana Kernodle and Ethan Chapin on November 13. a report by New York Times Wednesday offers new insights into the alleged murderer’s troubled teenage years and struggles to feel emotions at a young age.

The Tapatalk profile behind the chilling posts in 2011 was associated with a Washington State University PhD criminology student with the help of memories from Mr. Kohberger’s old friends, and a username matched an email account used by him. Times.

Mr. Kohberger was previously described by his high school friends as an intellectually gifted teenager who often struggled to socialize and fit in. According to a CBS News report, he is a “bully” in his first year of high school.

But her alleged posts on the online discussion forum, when she was 16, reflected Mr. Kohberger’s concerns about suicidal ideation, a disorder he describes as “visual snow”—people are stagnant, and unable to connect with relatives.

One post reads, “I feel like an organic meat sack of no value.” “I look at their faces as they hug my parents, I can’t see anything, it’s like I’m watching a video game but less so.”

In another post, the author explored his feelings of self-loathing, regretting that he was no longer “the healthy blond-haired boy with blue eyes,” and within a few years, [he then had] darker hair and darker eyes, half his body weight”.

He then went on to say that he felt “mindless” and as if he was experiencing “depersonalization” and had “little or no remorse”.

“I often find myself doing simple human interactions, but it’s like I’m playing a role-playing game of oblivion; I can see what’s going on, I’m somewhat interested but I can pause the game and focus on my real life.

He continues: “I see everything as if I’m playing oblivion, out of the truth, meaningless and filled with nothing. I’m moving house, I’ve already had my last vacations but where was I? While my family group hugs and celebrates, I’m stuck in this void of nothingness, feeling nothing, feeling nothing.”

“I feel dirty, like I have dirt in my head, my mind is always dizzy and confused.”

The author continued to mention “regrets” [he] predicts for [his] Before he said he had felt “scary and lonely” since he was 15 and didn’t want to be alive anymore.

The last post by Profile was in February 2017, and the author ominously wrote that he was reckoning with his visual profit, but added that “something bad could happen”.

More than a decade after the posts were made, Mr. Kohberger is now the sole suspect in the brutal stabbings that occurred in Moscow in November.

After an eight-week investigation, investigators from the Moscow Police Department, Idaho State Police and the FBI gathered evidence that led to Mr. Kohberger’s arrest on December 30 in Pennsylvania, where he spent the holidays with his family after finishing his first term at WSU.

An affidavit released after his extradition to Idaho last week revealed that Mr. Kohberger’s DNA was found in a knife sheath left next to the body of one of the victims.

According to the affidavit, the cell phone data also shows that Mr. Kohberger had followed the student’s home at least 12 times until the night of the murder. The exact dates and times of these events were not disclosed in the affidavit, but all but the first took place late in the evening or early in the morning.

Mr. Kohberger appeared in court on Thursday for a preliminary status hearing.  Waiving the right to a speedy trial (AP)

Mr. Kohberger appeared in court on Thursday for a preliminary status hearing. Waiving the right to a speedy trial (AP)

At the time of the murders, investigators believe Mr. Kohberger turned off his cell phone to avoid detection.

However, his cell phone data shows he was close to his home on King Road at around 9:00 am on November 13;

The affidavit reveals that along with cell phone data and DNA evidence, a white Hyundai Elantra spotted at the scene during the murders could also be traced back to the suspect.

One of the surviving roommates of the victims was also able to partially tell investigators about the murderer after coming face-to-face with the murderer in the early hours of 13 November following the murders.

The motive for the killings is unknown and it remains unclear why Mr. Kohberger allegedly targeted the victims.

A lawyer representing Goncalves’ family said there was “no connection” between the four students and the suspect.

Ethan Chapin, 20, Madison Mogen, 21, Xana Kernodle, 20, and Kaylee Goncalves, 21, took this photo together hours before she died (Instagram/Kaylee Goncalves)

Ethan Chapin, 20, Madison Mogen, 21, Xana Kernodle, 20, and Kaylee Goncalves, 21, took this photo together hours before she died (Instagram/Kaylee Goncalves)

Now, the families of the four victims will have to wait at least another six months to receive further responses regarding their child’s murders, after the next court date has been postponed to June.

Until then, Mr. Kohberger will be held behind bars in Latah County Prison after being ordered to be released on bail a second time.

Mr. Kohberger, a criminal justice doctoral student at Washington State University, lived just 15 minutes from the victims, crossing the Idaho-Washington border in Pullman.

He had moved there from Pennsylvania to begin his education in August and had just completed his first semester.

Prior to that, he studied criminology at DeSales University – first as an undergraduate and then graduating in June 2022.

While there, she worked with renowned forensic psychologist Katherine Ramsland, who interviewed the BTK serial killer and was a co-author of the book. Confession of a Serial Killer: The Untold Story of BTK Killer Dennis Rader with him.

He also conducted a research project “to understand how emotions and psychological traits affect decision making while committing a crime.”

If you are experiencing feelings of distress, isolation, or coping, The Samaritans offers support; You can talk to someone on 116 123 (UK and ROI) on the phone, with confidence, free of charge, email jo@samaritans.orgor visit the Samaritans website for details of your nearest branch.If you are in the United States and you or someone you know currently needs mental health help, call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). The Helpline is a free, confidential crisis hotline that anyone can reach 24/7. If you are in another country, you can go. to find a helpline near you

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